Another first today mum, your first birthday not being here. I’m sat on your bench now, it’s so peaceful, all I can hear is the wind in the trees, the water and the birds. It’s so quiet, just the way you liked it. I just wish that it was you sat here with me. I miss you so much and so does daisy too. I wish you were here so you could see me, so you could meet Steph and Frazer. I just wish you were still here. It’s not the same without you, and some days I feel so alone because I can’t just pick up the phone and call you. Daisy has finally gone back to swimming lessons and she is loving it, I wish you could see her and see how much she’s grown and how big she is getting. I love you so much mum and miss you even more. It’s unfair that you’ve been taken away from us, I don’t feel old enough to lose you. There’s so much I want to say to you, I just don’t know how to get it all out and say it. I love you mum, happy birthday, I wish you were here with us to celebrate it. I love you lots, and so does daisy. Xxxxxxxxxxxx